Forbidden

to tempt and be tempted

You can feel the forbidden thoughts
as they come rolling in
to tempt and be tempted.
To hold yourself up in high esteem
closing your eyes as you walk down the beach.

I can feel the forbidden thoughts
as they come rolling in
to judge and be judged
but I tamper those thoughts down
because who am I to?
Lying on the porch
dreaming of being in your arms again
nothing but a pink sundress on.

I want you
and I could come up with a list of reasons not to
but they don't matter when you take your sunglasses off
and look me up and down.
You've got that black T-shirt and those black jeans on
the very same ones you wore that day at the park
when I laid my head on your chest
when you told me the same damn things you did 
yesterday afternoon
those bad things
because you judge too much
but I still want you.

Just touch me
tell me that you want me.

Just hold me
as a friend.
You don't have to say that you love me
or make any sort of commitment to me.
That's too much to dream
but just be gentle with me. 
Help me get used to the feeling 
of something within me.
Hold me.
Hold me there.

If I've got dreams, if I've got visions
if I've got fantasies
don't you think I should live them out?
Don't you want to help me live them out?
You were the one who told me to be bad.
But I've got love in my mind
so still I try
to keep the darkest thoughts at bay.

I just want you.
Hold me, won't you, as a friend
help me get used to this foreign feeling.
Just stay, for a few minutes. It's a physical, spiritual thing
my twitchy muscles calming
something, something within me.
Just hold me.